Four Eyes...

I have been wearing glasses for a week because my left eye got an infection. I have been wearing contacts since I was a senior in high school. I loved getting rid of my glasses. I never felt that glasses suited me. I can remember getting them when I was in about the 4th grade, and I would rather not see the board than wear them. I'm not sure what the deal was, but for me it always felt like they may as well have been neon orange and flashing. That's how I've always felt wearing glasses. So, once when Ashley was just a few months old, I got infection in BOTH EYES! So bad, that the doctor had me wear patches on both eyes. This rendered me blind. I was living in Parma at the time and Angela was staying with me. She must have been 15 years old, because she only had her permit. Here's the fuzzy part...I'm not sure where I wanted or NEEDED to go, but I couldn't drive obviously. But....wait a minute...Angela had her permit. She could drive me. She insisted, however, that she couldn't because 1. she'd never driven on highways that dealt with on ramps and exit ramps, and 2. she had to have a licensed driver. I told her the highway would be a piece of cake, and I, after all, was a licensed driver. Nobody said that your licensed driver had to be able to see, right? Perfect plan. I'm not sure why I felt it would be okay to transport a few months old baby in a car with a girl who had hardly driven and a blind mother, but at the time I thought it made perfect sense. I don't remember the details, but I'll let Angela finish the story with her recollection when she posts a comment, and I KNOW SHE WILL!

Dave

My Fellow Americans...

Do we all remember the movie Dave? It was a movie about a man who was a dead ringer for the President, so they hired him as a decoy. The movie gets more complicated than that, but I was thinking... If I lost weight (alot of weight), I could be Sarah Palin's decoy. It's the perfect job for me. She has 5 kids, I have 5 kids. Her 5th child is special needs, my 5th child is special needs. She wears her hair up, I love wearing my hair up. My glasses look like her glasses. I mean, come on...who can't see this? LOL So, I'll be busy training the next few months, so that I'm fit and ready to get on with my upcoming job. I took my parents out for lunch for my dad's birthday today. I told them about my plans. My dad said, "you are no where near as pretty as she is!" My mom said, with a little grin, "You do look like HER." So, I have a 50/50 shot. So, please... if you wish to talk to me, treat me with some respect, vice-presidential respect!

I took 2 shots, got no ducks, and cold, cold hands...

What is this blog about? Nothing. That was just a random lyric from an old John Denver album I used to own. Yes, I owned a John Denver album. I not only owned it, but I actually went out and purchased it. Why, oh why? The album was called Windsong. The blog title song was called Two Shots. I liked that song for some reason. I'm wired wierd like that. Lyrics just pop into my head. It was around 30 years ago that I last heard that song, yet the lyric was just as clear as if I had heard it yesterday. It happens alot with christian songs. When I was nervous about Liz having open heart surgery, a song came to me that I hadn't heard since I was a little girl. " I care not today what tomorrow may bring, though shadow, or sunshine, or rain. I know the Lord ruleth o're everything and all of my worry is vain. So, I'm living by faith, in Jesus above, trusting confiding in His great love. From all harm safe, in His sheltering arms. I'm living by faith, and I feel no alarm." That came as such a comfort to me, just when I needed it. I love music. Music is something that makes me happy and I like to do for fun! YAY! I know at least one thing I like to do for fun!

If I Could...

As a mother, daughter, sister, and friend there are so many things I would do...if I could.

If I could...
I would find Elizabeth a friend, just like her. Someone who would listen to every word she had to say, and actually want to hear them. Then again, who am I kidding?

If I could...
I would heal her completely.

If I could...
I would pay off every school loan my children have, and keep Katie from incurring any so they don't have to struggle!

If I could...
I would give my mother's speech back.

If I could...
I would give my dad's strength back.

If I could...
I would battle a stupid brain tumor!

If I could...
I would make it so two of my sisters didn't have to work, one because of pain, the other because of stress.

If I could...
I would have my husband working 5 days a week, normal hours, with lots of vacations.

If I could...
I would see to it that Richard never got deployed.

If I could...
I would instantly make all the excess me disappear (that sounds nicer than fat, doesn't it?) so it didn't hinder me from living my life.

If I could...
I would take Elvira's cancer away.

If I could...
Nobody would take advantage of a trusting soul... And for those that it has happened to, I would restore their trust so they don't carry around the burden of what has happened to them in the past and judge every future event by it.

If I could...

But I can't...

I can't fix any of it. So... I try and lay all of those burdens at the feet of Jesus without carrying all of them with me when I leave. That's the trick you know? Leaving them there. We're blessed that He's a forgiving God, because we certainly get it all wrong at times. Why is it so hard to trust completely...to trust without letting the doubt creep in...

TRUST:
1.
reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
2.
confident expectation of something; hope.

God certainly has all the credentials of someone you can trust...integrity, strength, ability, surety...

Psalm 27: 8 says: The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.

AMEN

I Survived!

I survived my babysitting adventure. It was only 15 minutes. The baby was adorable. In other news... as I was looking over my past posts, I realized that I use commas way too often. I also use them in places they do not belong. I will try and correct that problem by enrolling in USE OF THE COMMA, 101. Can someone tell me why my post times are different than the time I actually post them? Is blogspot operating on West Coast time? Can I fix it? Class? Class? Anyone? Anyone? (Oh yeah, I found it, I fixed it, it's my birthday)

It's 3:14 a.m., WHY am I up?

I'll tell you why I am up! I am UP because I said I would babysit in the morning. Why would I say that? I don't like to babysit. Babysitting terrifies me. I love the baby, hate the sitting. Normally, I would make Aunt Ang come over, but that's not gonna happen babe. I'll be all alone. Okay, I know I'm about to lose some sympathy here... I only have to babysit for 15-20 minutes, but still. Rob's killer kitten is still living here. It could attack my jugular vein, rendering me helpless, then what?

WOW, Everything Has Changed!

So... 4 months have gone by since my original post, and guess what? Everything has changed...well, almost everything. Rick, Ash, and Ben have moved to the state of Washington and are moving into their first real home. We're thrilled for them. James and Em are finishing up grad school and will be returning to the U.S. soon. We're thrilled for them too! Robert has moved to the windy city and is working for a sports television network. We're thrilled for him! Katie has had her first boyfriend, and lost her first boyfriend, and is now a junior in high school. Miss Liz is starting 8th grade and tried to get me to write an excuse to miss school because she had a bad case of hoppersthermoswisesensus. Ken is still a farmer. I still have ADD and still don't know what I like to do for fun! Now that I have updated, I will try and find something interesting to say. After all, I want to be a part of the blog world. Someone said I should be. I think I heard it on www.youshouldblog.blogspot.com !